No one cares...

I can't believe this guy, Hayden. I don't really care if he sleeps around. I didn't even know him until all this videos came out... I think I speak for all the girls out there... How dare you do such a thing and not be man about it! You can't hide the fact that there was no consent when you've seen the video. AND MY GOD!!! That song... you just murdered it! How are we suppose to sing that in our next videoke adventure without seeing your face, and that thing you did with your body, that I can only assume you think was dancing. haaay... Don't get me wrong I do not dance very well, that's why I don't dance in public...

Please keep your sexy time to yourself. If you want to immortalize that moment, I suggest you keep it in your head. use your imagination. It may be good for you.

you hung up on me.

I don't think it's fair. All I was saying is you should have told me earlier. I never said I wouldn't do it. I was just worried I won't make it on time. You hung up on me and said never mind, you'll take care of it. So I hope I don't hear this coming up in future discussions. I didn't say I wouldn't do it. I was only upset I found out late. But thank you for not letting me proceed with it. If you can handle it, like you said you would, then I don't wanna hear about it, and don't bitch about it. I am writing this down here So i won't forget how I felt, just in case you ever bring it up. Which I hope is never. Thank you.

***Don't ask.

Ayus no? naimagine mo ba yung situation na yan?

You have 0 new email.

Most of the email i get are spam from friendster and facebook and other things I subscribed to, both intentionally or unintentionally. I don't think I even have internet social life anymore. It's killing me. I used to have a life outside home and work. Now, it's all I have. I love my family, no question about it, but it's all different now. I didn't know this is what it meant to be married and start a family... Then I realize others have both. I guess it's just me... and my husband.

This came to me when my hubby asked me one time, what it is I missed about being single. I said it's being bale to go out whenever I wanted to. I didn't mean bars to drink and dance, I never did that on a regular basis, I meant to go drive to a friends place, to be on a trip somewhere with out planning it months ahead. Without needing to consider what I left at home and who will be looking for me over the weekend. *sigh* It's all a blur now what I used to be able to do. I'm a grown up now and I have responsibilities, that where it all comes down to. I just can't getup and go. Or spend forever in front of the PC chatting and talking on the phone for hours. That's all in the past.



Sometimes I dream about quitting my job and start running the family business, which I know I have to do eventually, but my husband doesn't seem to understand that I will have to do it eventually. I think he doesn't understand the fact that the family business is something I need to do full time when My brother leaves and works in SG and then my mother leaves for the US for good. The way I see it he thinks, I can still work and run the business at the same time. It's sad that when I try to talk to him about it all he said was "we'll look into it." . Well, that's not going to work. he has to accept this eventually. I will be the only one left to take that responsibility. The sooner he accepts it, the sooner I can feel better about it.